In Pursuit

Hello Fellow Daughters of the King,

I’m grateful to Angela for the opportunity to share in this space and above all for our Lord and Savior Jesus who has brought me to this juncture to be able to testify of His goodness and unfailing love over my life. I would briefly unfold my testimony here as this is what the Lord put in my heart to share with His daughters. 

Psalms 139:13 speaks “For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb”

This verse comes alive to me every time I have read it. I believe God knew me right from the very moment I was conceived in my mother’s womb. Here is the reason why…

My parents had 3 daughters and as it is very common in India which is a male dominant society, my family hoped for a son. My parents wouldn’t be able to know about the gender of their child until I was born.  It wasn’t the happiest moment when I was born as I wasn’t the baby they had been expecting. I was given up in adoption few months later to a couple who were close family and didn’t have children. Did God still have a plan for me? 

I wouldn’t have understood this through my teens which were some of my worst years. I went through a period of anger, bitterness and stubbornness because I failed to understand my purpose in life. I went through this phase of finding joy for myself out of self-sympathy. In all of this, I never chose to seek Him. I know He might have been there waiting for me to call on Him for He knew my heart. As David says in Psalms 139, “You know what I’m thinking of”, “You know exactly how I live”, “You are all around me”, “Where can I escape from Your spirit?” 

I understood more in the latter years with the wisdom He gave me. Nothing that happened in my life was a mistake. Isaiah 55:8 speaks “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord”. 

God had the perfect plan for me. There was no mistake! Hallelujah! He had called me from my mother’s womb to be His daughter and had equipped me from that very moment of conception to be the person I am today. He gave me opportunities in this life to be a daughter, sister, wife and a mother. God’s love and mercy over my life has been so great that I haven’t been able to fathom how great His pursuit was of my heart. 

God always had wanted to invite me deeper — deeper into the knowledge and awareness of His love for me. He had always wanted to assure me that He was with me in all things. 

There grew a hunger and strong urge to get to know My Creator more. This was unlike how I knew him earlier, it was a new desire to communicate with him like never before.

Jeremiah 29:12-13 speaks “Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and you will find me when you search for me with all your heart”

I have been a weak woman. Struggling during difficult situations and reacting in the most human way. But what I have cherished is how He drew me closer and taught me exactly how a father would admonish his child. He brought me close to a place where I learnt to depend on Him and seek Him in every area of my life. I chose to draw close to Him and give Him that place in my life where He would be in control. This brought me freedom and a peace that no man can understand. Philippians 4:7 says “The peace of God that passes all understanding would guard your hearts and minds.” 

One example of how I chose to seek His will for my life is my marriage:

I found my husband Sholes on a matrimonial site online. If you would believe it, he was the first profile I clicked after two days of registration. I wasn’t sure as we started chatting and getting to know each other if this was the right person God had intended for me. It just seemed too quick to be true! I kept seeking His will and praying about it more than ever. I asked God to shut doors if this wasn’t going to be the man I should marry. Though there were many hurdles for us to get married at that time, God paved the way supernaturally. There were times when it seemed to make more sense to go our way rather than God’s way. In those moments, we refused to lean on our own understanding as He confirmed from His Word to both Sholes and me for what He intended for us. It has been over 11 years now and God has led us every step of the way in our family. We kneel in prayer over the smallest decision to be made to seek His will. There is no alternative to this. From parenting, choice of schools for kids, college, jobs or buying a new house, it is always laid down at His feet first.  Proverbs 3: 5-6 says “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.”

Last but not the least, God taught me the importance of prayer! He taught me that even though I was weak and vulnerable fighting my own battles, praying over someone’s needs brought us both healing. It took off the focus from my own problems to the needs of others. Praying for someone also gave me the freedom to exercise my faith and build my trust in Him. Prayer brought an obedience in me to seek Him first in the most difficult situations. It was the only thing that brought me close to my Savior and also closer to my believing friends and family.

I would want to end with a prayer for all you wonderful ladies as I wish for you to experience Him with wholeness that He desires for us as His daughters. 

Heavenly Father, 

Thank You for your amazing power and work in our lives, thank you for your goodness and for your blessings over us. Thank you that you are able to bring hope through even the toughest of times, strengthening us for your purposes. Thank you for you are always with us and will never leave us. Thank you for it is through you that we can have freedom and life. Help us to set our hearts and eyes on you afresh. Renew our spirits and fill us with peace and joy. We love you and need you every day. We give you praise and thanks, for You alone are worthy! In Jesus’ name, Amen!

Smitha Sholes is from Mumbai, India and is married to Sholes David. Her family is blessed with two children, Esther and Noel. She moved to Dongguan, China 7 years ago and works at TLC International School. She is passionate about the things of God. She lives each day to the fullest, keeping her eyes on the goal: to lead a Godly example. She loves to cook and enjoy food with her family and friends!

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