“Be still, and know that I am God.
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth!”
I became a Christian in university and as a new believer later in life, I started picking up some spiritual habits from my peers who were Christians most of their lives. One such habit was memorizing scripture by sticking post-it notes with verses written on them in places you look at all the time. For example, in our dorm you would find post-its on the bathroom mirror, on our bedroom doors, or on the fridge.
Psalm 46:10 was a favorite of mine that I posted on our fridge door. Of all the post-its, I have vivid memories of this one. For one, anyone who knows me, knows I cannot sit still. I cannot even stand still. I am on the move all the time. Whether it was back in my university days, or now as a mother of two young children living and ministering cross culturally; I. Can. Not. Be. Still. As a young Christian, I quickly realized that this personality trait was a symptom of something greater spiritually. I remember reading this verse in the Amplified Bible version:
10 Let be and be still, and know (recognize and understand) that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations! I will be exalted in the earth!
What was my condition? In this version, the answer was in these two words: “Let be”. I remember on the post it, in my hasty handwriting, I underlined and bolded these two words. Back then, these two words gripped me because I realized that being still before an all sovereign God, an almighty God, required letting things be. It required surrendering. That was my problem. I couldn’t just let things be.
As I revisited this verse this past week, I now know why I had trouble letting things go back then, and even now. The key is in the second half of the sentence: recognize and understand that He is God. In my university days, I was still a young believer. I was still struggling with how to have a meaningful relationship with an almighty Creator. So, in my attempt to let things go, I relied on myself because I didn’t know God enough to rely on Him. I didn’t trust Him enough.
To surrender and let things be, to be still, requires a deep understanding and recognition of who God is. This kind of deep understanding results in a deeper relationship with Him and thus a greater trust.
As a mother of two now, raising children, running a household, working part time, and ministering to migrant women in Southern China, experiencing any quiet, still moment is nothing short of a miracle.
But even in the chaos, I find I am able to “let be” with more ease than I did back in my uni days. In the past 8 years living cross culturally, I have come to know God deeper than I ever have before. I am breathing deeper, as I discipline and teach my children, knowing that God is holding their lives in His hand. I am smiling more, as I minister to women, knowing God is revealing Himself to them, and I did nothing more than just show up and be a part of their lives. I am singing more, as I am washing dishes or cooking, knowing that even in the mundane, His presence is near and He sees me.
This was the secret of being still that I didn’t fully understand back in university. I needed to know God deeply before I could learn to surrender and be still. His heart’s desire is actually so we can be His. I am still learning to grasp this truth. He rejoices and sings over me (Zeph 3:17). His love and joy for me is like a bridegroom for his bride (Is 62:5). He loves me with an enduring love (Ps 136). This love conquers nations for me, fights my enemies for me, and has made the ultimate sacrifice for me.
So, though I still struggle with being still physically, I often feel stillness in my spirit. I am quieted by His love. I can have sweet moments with the Lord, even in my busy, crazy schedule because I know Him more than I did before. He is reliable. He is faithful. He will help me. He will take care of it. His love will never fail. I can trust Him, and so my soul can rest. It is then that I can “let be”.
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Such truth and wisdom! Thanks for the reminder to “let be” and “be His”!
Thank you for this post. To let be, to let God be God is important. It does take an effort to remind ourselves, especially as moms, to trust God with everything.